i dare not go for bike lessons for another one month or so

*groaning and moaning*

waaahHH......!!! wwwaaaaahhhhhh!!
AaaahhhhH!!!!

i BTH!!!
2dae kanna scolded by a supposedly kind-and-peaceful instructor...
i owaz thot he is very friendly and good as he is very lenient in grading us..
he owaz pass mi even when i did alot of mistakes...

AND I REALLI liked him as he is one of the few very nice and pleasant instructor who will joke with students..

YET!!! TODAY!!!!!!
HE scolded mi..........!!!!!!!!!!!
wwaaahhhhh~~~~
i totally sinked into a drunkened and unstable state of mind after wat happened.....

wwwaaahhhh~~ my tears burst out uncontrolllably...
i cant stop my legs from wobbling..
my cold sweat keep flooding out of my pale weak body..
my face turned instantly green

this was wat happened.

he was evaluating me and gave mi 20 demerit points and AN immediate failure
however, the passing rate is 16 demerit points.

the IF was: stopped in yellow box after a course.
20 demerit points include: +4pts for not checking blindspot at slope.

BUT!!!!!
i have sufficient reasons to BACK up for this in order to PASS!!!

reasons for IF:
senario, after the course i was about to turn left, but there's a car infront of mi.
so i let it pass.... and proceeded behind it.
just then, it suddenly stopped, and caused me to stop behind it too.
but i DID NOT touch the yellow box!
Ii was RIGHT BEHIND the yellow line ............

reasons for 4 demerit pts,
( THIS SCENE IS STILL IN MY MIND )
after i checked my blindspot and turned my head back,
I caught him just in time to see him turn his head to my direction. I SWEAR.
therefore, resulted in him MISSING MY BLIDSPOT CHECKING!!!!!!!!
and i was already moving off then, so did not check again.

when i told him of this, (which he cut my sentence neatly)
he said this "if u dont respect my colleague and my decision, we also dont respect you"
he then continued "you dont try to question our qualified ....."
"you are very typical.. dont try to argue with us."
*blur* "huh? wat typical?"
"you dont admit your mistakes, I also dont bother to argue with you"
"wat? i got admit wat.. see *point point* this one i admit.. this one.. but realli... just now.."
"dont bother trying la.. *repeat* you dont respect us we also dont respect you"
"wah, y ur face suddenly so black"
"ya la. if you dont wanna admit your mistakes then we also dont wanna argue with you"
"okokkk... sorry sorry sorry srysryrsyrysry i respect you i respect i respect"
"why you so fierce? *stunned* scare me..."
"dont try to argue with us la.. we evaluate wat we see.. dont question us, we are qualified to know wat marks to give you,you are not respecting (our judgement) ..... ..... ....... ...... ...."
"orhorhorhorh.... u very fierce.. scare dao wo.... byebeybeybeybbebeeebebyebybebe"

and ran off...

and my moaning started right after i left.


waaahhh... I have not been scolded for such a long time ..
and i realli realli cannot take it man....
wwwaaahhhh~~ my tears burst out uncontrolllably...
i cant stop my legs from wobbling..
my cold sweat keep flooding out of my pale weak body..
my face turned instantly green...............................
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aaahhh... wwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh.~~~~~
my emotions suddenly sink to the hollowest well.
my mind and soul is floating in mid-air as i walk back home...
my facial expression is so tighten as thou covered in wax
people look at me and smile looking at my drunkened state while walking.
i couldnt bother as my spirit does not concern about anything else except to recover my frightened soul..

i went into a 'hynotised' mode
brain was blank other then fillings of images of people watching and flashbacks of the surroundings as he blabs...


i am so scared of him now i dare not go back no more...

crystal says:
haha
crystal says:
must go!
FANGus - [! IM NO WEAKLINGS!!!! im strong and fierce!I!]] says:
i m so scared right now i dare nto go back.
FANGus - [! IM NO WEAKLINGS!!!! im strong and fierce!I!]] says:
his face reminds mi of the frightening images

my mind is still not calmed.. I AM NOT AT PEACE!